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Whiney Dancer
04:10
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Well picture this it’s your typical night out with your friends
You’ve had your pre's and your pub crawl, now you need somewhere to end
The obvious choice is a nightclub a short walk down the way
And in my current state I’ll just blissfully say
“Sure thing, sounds like a good idea”
Problem is Dancing usually scares me out of my skin
But I've had enough to drink so far it seems my minds given in
At least for the idea and at least it seems just for now
Maybe tonight I’ll pull off something somehow
We’ll see, I think optimistically
And as I walk in it becomes clear
Tonight I'm not gonna face up to my fears
The music starts playing and I head for a wall
My feet turn cast iron so its a shuffle to a crawl
I've come crashing to the realisation that its gonna
Be a long night
I know it sounds foolish but that's just how I am
And my brains screaming “traitor! This wasn’t part of the plan
Just a few quiet drinks out, with your friends, on your night off, no stunts
Need I tell you again
You see its no conscious decision for my mind to lock down
My limbs become limp and autopilot sparks out
I feel a thousand judging eyes watching my every move
But in reality its false, just a mindset, a mood
I don't know where it comes from but its always there, without fail
I get there’s no pressure and I get there's no qualm
With letting loose once in a while, long as you’re doing no harm
And I'm aware right now I'm as fun as a fart in a full ferry
But my minds now gone numb like static on the telly
I'm on the edge of the room looking in, I’ve officially bailed
The music starts playing and I head for a wall
My feet turn cast iron so its a shuffle to a crawl
I've come crashing to the realisation that its gonna
Be a long night
I know it sounds foolish but that's just how I am
And my brains screaming “traitor! This wasn’t part of the plan
Now you’re sober again, and you’re lonely and scared and its all your own stupid fault”
Why did I come here why did I try
I just want to know if it's worth it, that I can feel alive
The music starts playing and I head for a wall
My feet turn cast iron so its a shuffle to a crawl
I've come crashing to the realisation that its gonna
Be a long long night
Yeah it's gonna be a long night
The music's still playing and I'm still here on the wall
To and fro the bar as if anything would help this at all
Watching like some weirdo, as everyone has fun tonight
I bear no resentment for anyone else
This something I’ve gotta sort out for myself
Or just deal with it, don’t attach to an idea, that I’m not comfortable with
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2. |
Fighting Against Fire
03:16
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I don’t know why
I tried so hard to be like the other guys
With their swaggers and their bikes
But I did
I don't know why
I try so hard to see things from the other side
When I'm fighting against fire
Yet I do
But here’s to hoping
I don't know why
I tried to be a somebody in school
The idea seemed so cool
Unlike me
I don't know why
I wanted so bad to just fit in
Be another piece in this sin
Of a place
But here’s to hoping
I wanted to fly so very high
But took a one way ticket down
I'm still not sure as to why
My imagination wandered the clouds
The ones I knew then
I was never sure if I was to call them my friends
It all seemed so pretentious
To me
As soon as the going got tough
They were the first to say they'd had enough
That I had pushed my luck
One last time
I didn't know what had happened
I wanted to fly so very high
But took a one way ticket down
I'm still not sure as to why
My imagination wandered the clouds
I went for years
Thinking that all of this was all my fault
That I am just an assault
On the brain
But when I left school
I met others who helped break the fall
And made me feel some worth
after all
Then I realised
The world is so damn full of drama
Most people don't see past themselves
They're happy causing countless trauma
Just so they have got a story to tell
I don't know why
I tried so hard to be like the other guys
With their football and their fights
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3. |
Antisocial
03:31
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I
Just need more time
I think I'm doing what is really right
But good things never happen overnight
Why
I just wanna know why
The biggest thing in this world is spite
And people who are longing for a fight
And most don’t seem to see the problem
With seeing others as just rungs
Self elation or self indulgence
Is Causing pain our nature: 101?
Don't you dare
Pretend that you care
Or that you know what its like
To be a s-s-social suicide
Its all Id ever known
To be mistrusted and alone
The words of other predate any first impression
And all i can do is hide
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4. |
Clumsy Town
02:44
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Everyone has predicaments
Causing them regular laments
Id like to share mine right now with you
Don't worry, you wont have to share yours too
You see my problem lies with hand to eye
My coordination has sure seen better times
I'm gonna start my honesty circle right about here
As far away from the bar as I can get, cus I’ll probably spill a beer
I've tried so hard to make me right
But I can’t seem to see the signs
Of when my spatial awareness dies
And I've already knocked my pint
I belong in clumsy town
Where it's sippy tops on glasses now
Its been happening for years somehow
And I'm not sure why but I'm still allowed out
I sometimes wish I had a place to hide
For when the venomous viper in my side
Decides that today its gonna strike
And make me a walking ad for Carpetright
My fingers cant seem to take the strain
Of the mixed up muddled up messages they receive from my brain
I know its crossed wires up there but they should be used to that by now
Instead of making me slip and need somebody to fetch a bar towel
I've tried so hard to make me right
But I can’t seem to see the signs
Of when my spatial awareness dies
And I've already missed my pint
I belong in clumsy town
Where it's sippy tops on glasses now
Its been happening for years somehow
And I'm not sure why but I'm still allowed out
Who would’ve thought
A quarter of a pint of beer
Could soak the entire floor
And wash everybody out of here
I thought I had gotten past all this
That it was somehow a bullet that had finally missed
I played a gig at the Monument, where I felt near my best
I stepped forward to take a shot and spilled a glass of water
Right across the desk
I'm right home in clumsy town
Where Its sippy tops on glasses now
Its been happening for years somehow
And I'm not sure why but I'm still allowed out
I've tried so hard to make me right
But I can’t seem to see the signs
Of when my spatial awareness dies
And sh*t, I've already dropped my pint
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5. |
Confidence and Paranoia
03:51
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Every setlist every song, even if it's not that long
Makes me feel the same way makes me nervous and afraid
Because I hate the way I sing, and play guitar, just everything
I don't know what I do wrong, but I've been doing it so long
It's not like I've got a choice, I'm stuck with hating my own voice
I'll just have to put up with it, it's all I've got and I won't quit
I'll have to find a way to get by or just get better, I've gotta try
Seems that I lack the confidence to relax, and get some sense
Cus I've been told I'm shit
And I've been informed that I could never make it
And the truth remains the same they say
That no-one will ever know your name
With every single song I write, it never feels like a good night
To try it out, give it a go, I know I'll just end up feeling low
There must be atleast ten or more of my songs I've never played before
I always try but I freak out thinking I'll do it tomorrow, without a doubt
And I've been told I'm shit
And I've been informed that I could never make it
And the truth remains the same they say
That no-one will ever know your name
Will I ever be at peace with myself?
Will I ever think that I don't need help?
Will I ever play anything I like?
Now you're probably wondering, if he hates it why does he sing
Well my friends I did not explain, I love that feeling when I play
I don't paly cus I think I'm good I just play cus I think I should
I love the rush the ecstasy, it helps me forget about me
And when I stop, I don't know what to do
Do I quickly run away or quietly say thank you
But I'll stand and wait awkwardly for someone to take over from me
Cus this night must go on, mine will never be the last song
And I've been told I'm shit
And I've been informed that I could never make it
And the truth remains the same they say
That no-one will ever know your name
I've been told I'm shit
But I've been assured that I should take no notice
And the truth remains unclear to me
I don't know who I wanna be
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6. |
Waiting on Tomorrow
02:19
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Woah here we go again once more I feel like crap
My high horse has tripped over itself and my saunters fallen flat
I've not yet worked out if its from driving home or simply because it’s late
But I've got four more gigs this weekend, so feeling like craps gonna have to wait
But I think, there's something different this time
I haven’t got the lump in my stomach, or the rain cloud in my mind
Dare I say, I don’t even feel the normal foreboding signs
So this time I’ll take a chance and say I’ll be alright
I've got to work this out, why this times not hit the same way
There's got to be a reason, something special about today
I mean I feel like I’ve accomplished something good but there must be an explanation
Something I've said or done to prevent the usual procrastination
When this hits, on a normal day I'm a write off
My Inspiration takes a holiday and my voice is a dying cough
Another waste, of the rare sunshine outside
Suppose I’ll just make use of it next time
I'm sick of feeling like a jigsaw puzzle
Sometimes together, but most of the time just in bits in my box
I am forever muddled, between shutting my open doors and simultaneously trying to force the locks
I know I’ve got a dream
But I haven’t got a clue what the future holds in store for me
Though it scares me, I’ll use what I have seen
And take each day with a fistful of hope and my best positivity
Cus I'm not a slave to these times
I'm not gonna take a backseat while my brain fucks up my life
I won’t waste too much more of my limited time
No more saying no
I’ll just shut up and go
I'm not gonna keep waiting till tomorrow
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